The Big Day

So tommorow is the "big day" surgery day for Holly! Nervous, yes! Convinced, No! Doing this, I guess! Wanting to, no! Is this right, yes! I'm trying to convince myself! My sweet angel who can't eat after midnight and craves nursing so bad that she acts like a starving animal, I know we'll get through this and it will all be OK! Still trying to convince myself! Wishing that my feelings could go numb and my heart wasn't breaking! I love her and I'll put on my mommy face and try and be strong for her, even though I'm silently breaking down!!! I hope and pray for the best for my girl's everyday! I love them more than anything, my sweet angels here on earth! I can' believe they're in my life!!!!!